- 3:25 AM, Thursday,
December 28th, 2019:
- Oh my
GOD that fucking game, those fucking calls.
I don't want to do anything right now but well
happy anniversary Talya FUCK.
- Here's the new
list for new restaurant every anniversary:
- 2010 - Pitfire
Pizza (5211 Lankershim Blvd, NoHo, CA 91601) -
- 2011 - Braemar
Country Club (4001 Reseda Blvd, Tarzana, CA 91356) -
- 2012 -
Maximillian's (closed) - Incredible Hungarian Food in
NoHo off Lankershim
- 2013 - Tasty
Burger (12525 Vanowen St, North Hollywood, CA 91605) -
Take Out 1st night with Cam
- 2014 - Kahuna Tiki
(11026 W Magnolia Blvd, Los Angeles, CA 91601) -
Awesome Hawaiin place
- 2015 - The Sushi
House (11388 Ventura Blvd, Studio City, CA 91604) -
Starting a Diet
- 2016 - Sushi
Nishi-Ya (1712 Victory Blvd, Glendale, CA 91201) -
Literally went to a 2nd Dinner after
- 2017 - The Sherman
(14633, Ventura Blvd, Sherman Oaks, CA 91403) - Cool
eatery on Ventura
- 2018 - Bareburger
(4560 N High St, Columbus, OH 43214) - Different
- 2019 - Wood
& Water (13359 Ventura Blvd, Los Angeles, CA
91423) - awesome food, too expensive
- We ran around town
trying to find a place that was open at 4pm because
the game started at 5 and "Wood & Water" was the
winner. It was really, really good... but still seemed
pricey. I had a burger with short-ribs in the meat
(yum), Talya had halibut tacos (awesome) but with 2
beers holy fuck $80? Just seemed excessive. Very good
though. Then the game and
CAN WE JUST TALK ABOUT
SEA WORLD ALREADY.
- Today we just got
back from Sea World. We had a blast:
- But I do
probably need to address the title of the entry.
There's just no denying what this was and why we
needed to do this before the year ended. In June we
went at someone else's suggestion not really being too
keen on the whole "Sea World" animal treatment angle
but knowing the kids would have fun. They did, but it
was marred by the people we were with and someone in
particular being even more needy than a 5 and 6 year
old. It was tough. It unfortunately lead to a letter
that lead to our complete erasure from their lives
without even a response. That was the start of
the second half of 2019 and it got worse from there.
- So Sea World, at
least to me and Talya meant THAT. It was an awful
memory and we thought we could go this time and, you
know... do what the kids want? Call me crazy, that's
kinda how things should be. And yay they got to see
the dolphins and in fact everyone behaved amazingly
and we stayed at that park for over 10 hours.
TEN HOURS and saw freaking everything. Last time
we could barely mate it a few hours before Talya and I
just lost patience as we were all on edge because we
had to tiptoe over the eggshells of someone else.
- The animal
treatment thing also felt different. For whatever
reason, I had forgotten my experience with Sea Lions
on the Channel Islands. Thanks to the magic of The
Journey, you don't have to:
- I think what I
forgot is that we really romanticize the "life in the
wild" for these creatures. Other than the big fuckers
like lions and whales? It ain't great. It's survival.
They don't eat all the time. Their skin is beaten to
hell. They get eaten. It's like Hunger Games out
there. I'm fairly certain if they saw what their Sea
World counterparts were doing for fish they'd be like
"Oh yeah, that's some bullshit. How do I get
THAT job." Freedom isn't really free for all
animals. Unless you're the king shit owning the jungle
or the ocean your life bloooooooooooooooooows.
Remembering that made it make a lot more
- But more than
anything, we got to move as a family throughout the
park. We even had Talya's mom and Aunt with us and it
was fine! Why? Because they were focused on what the
kids wanted to see and got joy from seeing them happy.
When you're not doing that it gets difficult. Whew,
I'm just remembering that day.
- I've been
heartbroken about the falling out for 6 months now.
I've written repeatedly, texted, called... not a peep.
I was in love with the idea of someone who
I thought always wanted the truth. He said he
did. We talked about how other family members didn't.
I held off as long as I could until finally I broke
down and wrote an email that was painful as fuck for
everyone involved. I had other family members read it
and make sure I was being fair... but we had reached
the point of no return. I expected him to be
angry and hurt. I would be too. I didn't expect
erasure. Not even knowing there was a receipt of the
communication. That's this new millenial ghosting shit
that is about as weak as it gets. Even babies
communicate. Holding your eyes and ears and running
from a conflict with someone who put his life in your
hands is unforgiveable. I think. I still want to
forgive. But I'm realizing he wasn't half the man I
thought he was and it breaks my heart to put that in
I love you man. I always will.