- 12:32 PM,
Thursday, January 24th, 2019:
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- So I named
this video/entry last night when I rendered the
video...
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- ...and I must
be getting old because I cannot figure out what
the hell I meant. I mean, this
JUST FUCKING HAPPENED and I don't
remember what I was thinking. Finding happiness
without "making it"? Seems about right, right? God
I really don't know - I was kinda buzzed
last night. Ha.
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- So yeah, what an
adorable video. It kind of annoys me that I'm always
this happy-go-lucky "fun dad" when I have a drink or
two and generally exhausted when I'm sober. That's
bad, right? Drinking just magnifies who you are and me
singing and laughing with my kids is absolutely who
I am...
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- ...but my brain
NEVER STOPS thinking about the work I have
to do. I can't really "work" when I'm drinking so
the moment I switch hats and sip some whiskey?
I instinctively know I'm "free" for a bit.
And no matter how exhausted or achy I am I do
shit like this in this video.
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- That should
probably be my goal, though: finding a way to turn off
my brain and be this Adam without any drug or elixir.
Not even becuase it could be a problem... but because
I don't want to need ANYTHING. I even want to get off
coffee here pretty soon because dude - I'm LOST
without coffee in the morning. Like "don't fucking
talk to me" without coffee. I'm
WAY WORSE without coffee than I am without
alcohol. I hate all of that. I don't want to be
beholden to that shit.
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- Way to ruin a
sweet video, Adam. But hey, these are my thoughts.
That's what you guys read this for.
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- Right
mom?
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- ;-)
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- Adam
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