- 5:27 PM,
Wednesday, June 20th, 2018:
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- Two days ago I
went on Frangela and did my normal stint being their
resident "realist"... but as I was piecing that
video together and watching the news I started losing
it a bit. Then yesterday, June 19th, I legit felt a
depression I hadn't in years.
While reading the news
I found that I had laid down. And as the day
continued I couldn't get up. I stayed in bed all
day. I drank. I ate comfort food. I cried. Then
when I watched Rachel Maddow break down I had to
disconnect out of self-preservation. What, is,
happening to our country.
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- I won't get
into the particulars, I obviously stand on the human
side and the sad thing is? Most people do, they just
don't understand the facts so they actually think
Trump isn't doing anything. I should proably just post
my portions from Frangela on Monday.
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- I really seem
together there. I wasn't soon after. And back in the
day - I was always good at capturing the
depression, but when you're trying to keep it from
your kids - the ability to think of you just goes
away. And then you have to keep them from seeing the
news describing FUCKING BABIES in jail. The
utter coincidence of Cameron suddenly learning about
jail and that kids don't go to jail. He actually said
that to me out of the blue as he ran into the room and
LOOKED AT THE SCREEN as the newscaster
talked about kids in cages. I don't THINK he
caught it but I jumped up to turn the channel and
had Talya take them out to watch cartoons. I mean
what the fuck.
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- And the worst? Is
right now I can already hear the "other side"
arguments in my head and they don't even realize the
audacity of what they're saying. They don't even
understand what asylum is. They're so, so, so
privileged.
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- I want to
leave. Jesus the second Vienna finds out school
shootings are even a thing... I just can't imagine how
we will console her. A friend of mine always says
"well statistically they're still safe" (this from
someone who homeschools) and it makes me crazy.
STATISTICALLY my kid would be safe if
I strapped a parachute on him and threw him off a
building.
DOESN'T MAKE IT A RESPONSIBLE THING TO DO MAN.
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- And that's what
all of this comes down to. When your country is no
longer a place you want to belong and you have the
wherewithall to do something about it - at what point
are you now irresponsible by staying?
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- Hyperbole is gone.
Something has to change.
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- Adam
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