- 2:18 PM, Monday,
May 21st, 2018:
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- The video pretty
much says it all...
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- I really could
have made this video several times this year. It all
just happened to hit me on this gig. Oh and
I should probably throw the voice-over in
here:
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- It's been
awhile since a video like this, but the foundation
of the journey was always being honest even when it
makes you look bad, knowing it will later be found
and used against you... it's a good way toweed out
the bad people, the judgy people and the people
that were never your friends.
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- So that's my
opening salvo in what is the most ridiculous,
first-world, nearly humble-braggingly bullshit
diatribe I'm about to throw down.
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- I was paid
handsomely to tow my car 6 hours to San Jose for an
event with their professional soccer team the San
Jose Earthquakes. I was miserable the entire time,
wanted nothing to do with it. I felt responsible
to make the couple thousand dollars because of my
family, but actively looked for other people to do
the event and I was the only person that could.
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- This, is,
entitlement. This, is, being soft. This is a
problem 99% of the people would kill to
have.
- It kills me
to say this because I thrive on hard work, an
insane work ethic and doing things no one else
would even attempt. But maybe therein lies the
answer:
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- I already
proved this whole RentTheDelorean.com thing worked.
I'm kind of over it? Dude I can hear people
wanting to punch the screen right now. But, I
mean, Memorial Day will kick off the FIFTH year of
doing this job and the "fun" aspect of it was
erased the moment that engine was swapped and it
became the most unreliable car of all-time... my
headspace is so full being a mechanic as well as
the guy running the business and the driver or
documentarian or spokesman or MOTHERFUCK CAN I
PLEASE JUST SING A SONG like I was SUPPOSED TO DO
MY WHOLE LIFE? DAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
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- For whatever
reason, with this gig it all just hit me. The
lonely hotel rooms, the lonely drives,
the
- continual
push out of responsiblity for your family and
mortgage although your heart is LONG GONE.
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- And everyone
watching this is saying: WELCOME TO THE PLANET,
FUCK HEAD. That's what WE DO EVERY DAY and we SURE
AS FUCK DON'T DO IT IN A TIME MACHINE. Nor do we
have people buying us food, drinks and hotel rooms
while "WORKING."
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- So yeah I
get it, but I have to continue to be honest here
even though they're right. The Journey
is
- about how
this all feels. It feels soul crushing. It just
does.
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- It's a catch-22 of
course. I remember during the second half of 2016
wishing for gigs exactly like this. For some
reference, in the last 6 months of 2016 we had 23
events. In March and April of this year we had 26.
I've done 30 in 10 weeks, I'm just burnt out. The
money doesn't lessen my stress level and that's
another bizarre twist: what does success feel like if
failing feels the same? Ya know? Success to me is the
freedom to do whatever the hell you want even if that
means doing NOTHING. That doesn't happen with
RentTheDelorean.com unless you have NO BUSINESS.
So it's a tough situation. It will slow down and I
would hate myself if I ever gave up any of these
opportunities because of momentary
misery...
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- ...but make no
mistake. I'm pretty miserable wrapping my life around
this car. Oh what I'd give for someone to be able to
solve the problems with it. Whew.
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- Adam
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