- 3:49 PM, Sunday,
February 11th, 2018:
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- So yeah. Not even
sure why you'd follow The Journey now because
everything that's happened in the past 24 hours is
100% on video and will be saved for the film.
Including a panic attack and most likely a damaged
converter box (at $300 - the entire computer is $150 -
sigh) and ending with the ridiculousness of Raphael
the Repo Man DRAGGING ME HOME.
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- I mean, he
was so sweet and so wanted to help and was so SURE it
would work I just believed him. On the phone
I started to get an idea of what he was going to
do and I started to stop him but he kept saying "no no
it'll work!"
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- I mean, it
did? But my heart is going to explode one of these
days. The stress of being dragged 2 feet from a car
that you can't afford to BUMP because there's
electronics on your FUCKING BUMPER is some white
knuckle shit I won't soon forget. And to be
honest the anxiety was so high, I just gave up.
I just laughed. What are you gonna do man. I'm
out of AAA tows already this year and yup, this saved
me like $300. I bought the new box from my phone
while waiting for Raphael and we'll know Wednesday if
that's all that's needed. I think the 2nd fire
damaged the box, but it thankfully worked at least
enough times for me to GET to the gig. The ride was
uneventful other than me wanting to pass out because
I couldn't see behind me. That's the real story
of the gig...
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- The PTSD of a car
fire is that the last thing you saw while driving that
car is the smoke. Usually you're not driving that same
car after a fire of that size so soon... but I was.
And when I looked in the mirror to see if it was
smoking? It was night. So I pulled over and checked
it. All good. But once on the highway you can't do
that and suddenly I started to lose it. I thought
I was gonna die. Every fucking minute. Then you
think you're gonna get in an accident because of the
anxiety over the nonexistent fire. Then you realize
the only thing that's keeping it from NOT exploding is
YOUR MECHANICAL EXPERTISE. I would not trust
me for a SECOND. So... yeah, the whole thing was
awful. But I made it there and made it home and
now I need to take a few days off. I'm not doing
well. No other way to say it.
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- Gotta fight
on.
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- Adam
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