- 9:22 PM, Thursday,
October 9th, 2017:
- To anyone
following this site, it's pretty clear birthdays
aren't a big deal to me. Don't have parties, don't
want gifts. The strange thing though is that you make
such a big deal about them for your kids, they
completely expect the same for you and have no idea
why we're not THEMING the house for the big 4-2.
Ha. Sure, it would be fun... I just don't care
enough to devote ANY energy to it because I'm
just as happy doing ANYTHING else. I guess I'm
- ...but when
I do get introspective on these pages I'm
suddenly in my late 20s thinking of 42 as sooooo much
older. I have so many questions for that dude and
if he didn't "make it", why? And I guess
I say, I have forty-two reasons why and
every year in this journey (which with the radio
entries now covers OVER half my life) houses several
min-reasons... but the years themselves add up and you
feel appreciation for the littlest things. Except you
find yourself blessed with a family and it's no longer
little - it's big. It's everything and it's so
overwhelming that "you" are lost. I kind of got
into it in the fatherhood vlog a couple entries back.
- So - I am 42.
I am middle-aged. I never think about it.
I just don't give a fuck. I'm proud of everything
I accomplish every year so time moving forward doesn't
really upset me. You can't control that, you can just
control what you do with that time. Look at these
entries - I'm doing just fine.
- And my family made
me a cake.
- All I need