- 8:01 PM, Tuesday,
October 3rd, 2017:
- Whew. A lot
to digest in this one. Sometimes, ya just gotta watch
- Man, I don't
know what to add. I kind of glazed over the heart
stuff, so lemme get to that...
- I haven't been to
a doctor in like 15 years. Had a shitty experience
with a deviated septum surgery and gave up on ever
fixing my sinus/ear issues. They're bad. My eustachian
tubes are always blocked. If I get a cold, although my
body gets through it quickly, I will have shit in
my ears for MONTHS after and it never fully goes away.
It affects my sleep and lately with all the stress
with Kenny and the car issues (that are worse than
they ever were) it's just been awful. Well guess how
- ...I go to
the doctor and my blood pressure is high. It varies
from High to High Normal in the morning. And while
I do have some anxiety and stress with the car,
etc. - I'm the least anxious person on the planet. I
mean, I think? High blood pressure makes NO sense
- ...except after
some research if you're not getting oxygen at night?
Your body makes up for it through the day with higher
blood pressure. I got a home blood pressure unit
and it was somewhat better at night - sometimes even
normal... but still, rarely normal - almost always too
high. FUUUUUUUCK that.
So to the ENT we go, sleep studies, the whole 9. So
we're gonna figure this out. But it's scary for me.
I mean, I'm a little overweight. I'm 170 and
soft. I could be 150-160 with some work, but after the
stress of the documentary I am taking it easy on
myself and not working out and happily eating a bit
too much and enjoying the kids. It's my normal routine
for October-December but let me tell you - if we fix
this sleep thing!??!
- Oh shit. With
actual energy? I can't fathom what I could
accomplish. I get maybe 3-4 hours of sleep a
night. Here's to figuring this out!
- And yes,
obviously, love my kids. Just whew... the baton has
been passed. I want to see what happens to THEM next
more than anything I could do.