- 8:29 PM, Tuesday,
June 13th, 2017:
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- I felt like the
only person that really understood the wrench that
Kenny threw into this project when he made the fake
dyno video and then abruptly decided to NOT come out
and race when he was caught. It wasn't just that race
he was affecting. If we didn't get the record? What
exactly do we document then?
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- Well, a month
later it's pretty clear that this can't go on. The
reason is what I touched upon in the last Fastest
Delorean entry: literally everything is about fixing
his mistakes. It's so overwhelming it feels like a
complete rebuild. One that could take a year. One that
I don't want to document. As heartbroken as I am
by what my brother did, I just don't have
interest in putting it out there anymore. Cue
video:
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-
- Whew. I'm not
kidding when I say that stalling moment at the
starting line feels like it will eat at me forever if
I don't find a way to complete this project. Such
an awesome and real moment. Part of me feels like if
I can at least get the tachometer working
I should just go there on June 25th and see if
that's JUST enough to take off 3/10ths of a
second and get the record except none of the crew can
do it that day and it's Cam's birthday. I at
least need to have it shot well - the last race day
kind of set the bar. Don can't do the July 30th
date... then we get into August... in the meantime?
All I do is document fixing Kenny's mistakes?
Really?
I DON'T WANT TO LIVE THIS ANYMORE.
I want it to be over and then I'm not worried
about the fucking story arc. I'm fixing my Delorean
the same way I've always had to fix the Delorean.
I can at least stop thinking about Kenny. The
documentary and his abrupt "ghosting" of it keeps
it over my head forever until it's
complete.
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- Fuck, fuck,
fuck.
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- I'll toy with the
tach a bit. I've done seemingly everything and it will
not register. I'm certainly not holding my breath. It
seems like we're destined to take a summer off here
and address this again in September or
October.
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- Ugh.
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- Adam
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