- 10:30 AM, Friday,
May 5th, 2017:
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- Well, I think
yesterday it became official. After two weeks of back
and forths, I have no choice but to make this public.
It isn't yet, probably won't be until next week, but
as you'll see from the video there was no way else to
do this other than shutting down the entire project
and I simply can't afford to do that after all
that's been put into it and will CONTINUE to be
put into it. Here's everything that has transpired
since that awful fucking day two weeks ago.
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- I wrote a long
personal letter to Kenny that goes even deeper into
issues that I probably won't even send let alone
post it in a locked entry. Just this one incident is
bad enough. I see no reason in bringing up every
other way he railroaded me, but rest assured - if this
becomes an actual fight/argument, the list is
lonnnnnnnnnng. It shouldn't be however. This is
pretttttttty black and white. Then again,
I remember another modification that was
prettttttty black and white that once public got
disected into confusion. I won't let that happen. I
have nothing more to say really. I have to move
on. I have moved on as you'll see in the next entry
and incredibly, we will be racing on
Sunday.
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- This is deeply,
deeply personal for me and the pain I feel for my
father right now is so intense. As I've said to
friends about this, it's the type of thing that had it
happened after our father had passed I would've said
to Kenny: "If dad knew about this it would've killed
him." To see my father THAT proud, THAT excited
for his sons to work together and then have this
happen... I just wish he never had to see this
side of Kenny. I mean, we all saw this side of
Kenny as a kid, but both my father and Lonna had
gotten to a good place with Kenny as an adult and they
had a good working relationship. I totally believe in
that shit, man. They found a comfort zone with each
other and could at least keep in contact. I'm sure
they still will! But I know their idea of
him is just absolutely skewed. I really do hope
that before they get too old, he can change. At 27,
I'm not holding my breath. He's certainly old enough
to not have done ANYTHING in that video.
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- So next week when
this is finally public I can exhale. Having to
hide/block/stop everything for so long has just killed
me. Done covering up.
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- Onward.
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- Adam
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