- 7:25 AM, Sunday,
August 7th, 2016:
- I wake up
this morning without much direction that isn't
completely in my head at this point. When
I received the email from Collins Avenue,
I responded immediately with a question and then
the following day just "guess" edited the reel, sent
it off and asked if it was what they needed. Over week
later? Not a word. That's par for the course with
- ...what isn't par
for the course however is not hearing back from
Geeking Out who was supposed to shoot last week, then
let me know things were kind of all over the place and
they'd get back to me. I will write them tomorrow, but
I know this business well enough that you know
well before the week of if you're doing a location
shoot. So suddenly this 10-day construction binge was
not only unnecessary, but maybe? They ain't comin'. I
know that sounds like a bit of a leap considering a
minor delay, but they were waiting back on network
apporval and if that doesn't come in a timely matter?
Something else fills the void. If they want it,
they're on it. If they're "iffy" it lingers until
something better comes along. And if Greg isn't
pushing for it? There's always something better. For
fuck's sake they had Matt Damon on episode one and JJ
Abrams coming up on the 2nd show. Yeah, GolfKon isn't
exactly front burner. But, I'll email tomorrow, he's
been good at responding and we'll go from
- What has indeed
been constant (although still in my head) is my push
to stay in the 150s. I didn't do a big
"150!" entry because, well, I did that before.
A couple times. No, that's no longer newsworthy
to me. Ya know what is? 100 straight days in the 150s.
That, my friends, is something I don't believe
I've ever achieved. That means a bunch to me. That
means I may have mastered a way to keep only a 7-8
pound fluctuation for a long stretch of time. It took
me finally accepting my cave man ways and taking it as
far as I could...
- Cave man. Ya know,
that period of time where the strong had to go days
without food and once they killed their food?
EATING THE FUCK OUT OF IT.
Eating so much that it could last you several days. I
think quite a few of us still have those genes and
with as plentiful as food is, our instinct is still to
eat several days worth. And I mean several days
worth. I can live off 1200 calories a day if I'm
careful but I can easily eat 5000 calories in a
day. EASY. I can do 2-3000 calories in a SITTING
without being in any real pain...
- ...and I can
also go 24-36 hours without a bite and be fine. Now,
I don't like it. It's not fun. But
I can do it and still keep working, keep moving,
keep going. I remember figuring this out when I had
done a water fast and the next morning I got up
and ran 2 miles before I got kinda tired. And
then I realized - oh shit no FUCK I'm tired,
I haven't eaten in 37 hours. What the shit was I
thinking? Well, I wasn't. My body can just do
- Now, 1200 calories
a day sucks. Especially in the maintaining phase. When
you're losing? There's motivation. When you're just
trying to not go back? It's boring. So I started
just testing. I said to myself: ANY weight
in the 150s makes me happy. Sure I'd love to be 151,
but 158 is fine. The difference in how
I look/feel is quite minimal between those two
weights. My underwear model days are numbered at 158,
but since I'm NOT AN UNDERWEAR MODEL, I
have no actual NEED to be 151. But I always get to
150, stay for about 3 weeks and inevitably jump to 165
and within a few months I'm at 180. That's where my
body wants to be. So how do I (not you or anyone
else - this isn't not advice), how do I stay in the
150s and stay sane? I found two ways:
- I eat whatever the
fuck I want one day, and then fast the next.
I don't do this everyday, but once or maybe twice
a week. The other days I do my normal 1200. For
the first 2 months of being in the 150s? I did
this with GREAT success. I couldn't believe it.
It felt like I was cheating. I was eating 3000
calories, sometimes mostly in one sitting! Then
I took a day off food... and it worked. No,
I wasn't 150, but routinely 155-157. It was an
awesome way to deal with all the shit that comes up in
life. Big events, huge dinners - I got to enjoy
all of that and as long as I countered the next
day with a fast? Was fine.
I wasn't doing a ton of strenuous activity.
I would run at the beginning of the fast day
(man, carb-loading WORKS! Some of my best times ever
after eating a ton the night before), but the rest of
the time I was just doing computer work. Of
course lately I've had to be in construction mode and
suddenly, that shit wasn't gonna fly. So although
I couldn't completely fast, what I did
attempt (and it's still been working) is putting a
good 18 hours between meals from the night before to
breaking the fast around 3-4pm. Since we get up 6-7am,
trying to get to 3-4pm is a fucking hard feat... but
one I can do if I keep my mind on other
things. Then I pretty much ravage a couple
thousand calories and repeat the process again.
Averaging around 157 at that routine. Of course that's
the other thing: I'm not 150. I can't eat that
many calories and stay 150, but I can stay in the
- So it's a give and
take and no matter what I'm on that scale and if
I get too close, I work hard to get back
under 155. But man, 100 straight days. I really
feel like I've taken my personal strengths in how my
body works and applied them in a positive direction. I
am an overeater. It's in my genes. And while, yes,
I can focus all my energy and beat it and only
eat 1200 calories a day for months at a time? It's
extremely taxing on my noggin' and unsustainable
forever. But, I will always have the ability to fast.
Always. I have figured that out about me. And again,
don't get me wrong - it's not easy. I get the
headaches at first, etc. But whereas some people would
PASS OUT if they even attempted it? I don't. I
just wait out some of the hard times when doing it and
in about 5-10 minutes I make it through. And yes,
I do have coffee. Duh. We don't sleep.
I average about 3-4 hours of sleep per night (so
much on my mind and, uhm, kids). Caffeine absolutely
curbs your appetite.
- So I guess
I'll check in in another 100 days and see if I'm still
doing well. I think that's around Thanksgiving -
LMAO. If I'm still in the 150s then, I'll be pretty
- Anyway, clearly
the video will be the construction binge I've been on
the past 10 days. Should have the tower complete
mid-week and then who knows what happens next. Part of
me is certainly preparing for all of it to disappear
(Chasing Heroes & Geeking Out), but I'll have a
better course because of it.
- Goddamn this
journey sometimes, man.
- Whew. I sure to
get shit done.