- 4:27 PM,
Wednesday, December 30th, 2015:
- The last entry of
the year is always an overview. This year however, the
video will be missing the heart of The Journey, but
often, so was this year...
- I'm a big believer
that when balancing your life it's best to see each
section as a spoke on a wheel and not a priority list.
However, one thing became quite clear this year:
sometimes, that's just not possible. 2015 was a year
where I had to sacrifice being selfish with my family
and make a business the #1 priority because there was
only one year that it could possibly work this well.
And although it did allow me to personally have some
incredible moments (as Don and I will speak about in
the next entry), once you're a husband and a father,
those personal moments feel incomplete when your
family isn't part of them. Every single one of those
moments for me were bittersweet. "God I wish Talya and
the kids could see this." crossed my mind every
time... AND every time we tried to think of a way to
pull offa family trip... the logistics of having two
toddlers made it impossible.
- Part of that, is
good. I think the best example sometimes for your kids
is wearing a different hat in front of them. Dad isn't
just a husband and a father, he's all these other
things too. Mom doesn't just feed us and drive us
around, she has all these other interests that make
her, her. If you don't take that time for yourself to
really build those qualityies you become so
codependent on your label of mother/wife or
father/husband that you do everyone a disservice.
Especially for children who may not have the slightest
idea how to be self-sufficient. So, in a small way,
YAY! My kids will see this year someday as a very cool
- ...but to me it
will always be a bummer they weren't a little older -
because HOLY SHIT would they have loved to
go on these adventures. By the time they are old
enough, well even right now honestly, the moment is
gone. Maybe once in a blue-moon they'll be able to
come to a Back to the Future event and see how
everyone digs their car - or get the opportunity to
travel BECAUSE of it... but chances are, that ain't
happening. Soooooo, it gets documented here and they
click through it later. C'est La Vie.
- The year for the
family however was, again, an ass-kicker. Chaos. Not
sleeping, tantrums, whew... just a whirlwind and of
course, I'm hardly around to help because even when
I'm here I'm on the phone non-stop and doing the work
of at least 3 people. 3 people I couldn't really hire
because, well, it's all over now. So I just kind of
had to suck it up and sacrifice a lot of fun family
stuff to get through the year.
- That being said?
I almost always got to help with bath-time,
bed-time and come to think of it? I probably saw the
kids more this year than most people with a 9-5, it's
just a massive shift when you've been home 24-7. So
I guess this entry is much ado about nothing.
- Well shit. No,
it's true - the family was a 2nd priority this year
and I had no choice but to lump it all on Talya
and say "Good luck.". She survived and grew a bunch as
a momma and the past two years will certainly be
looked back on as a great challenge. One that I've
mentioned a little bit already, seems to be easing up.
The kids are getting along, Cam still likes to get up
an hour early and make the whole house nuts (realize
an hour early is 4:45-5:00am for FUCK'S SAKE),
but that will soon pass.
- As will these
moments in a bathtub...
- Thank you, oh
Journey website, for the discipline to have to keep
producing. It means the world to me, our family and
hopefully will provide some sort of inspiration for
- Happy New