- 9:01 PM, Tuesday,
November 28th, 2014:
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- "How are the
kids?"
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- "The kids are
alright..." followed by random details that will morph
over time. Vienna can't stop saying
"NO BABY NO!". Cam can sort of sleep through
the night but he's so freaking loud he wakes up Vienna
so they can't sleep in the same room. Mama and Dada
are tired. We're in that mode of trying to simply get
to the next day when there's just a sliver of hope
that a routine will emerge.
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- It's why I take
videos like this one. I need to remember the innocuous
things that really do fill the space between the
extremes...
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- I think this is
the stuff that most people let slip by. I
unintentionally cut out Talya because she sat right in
front of the camera. LOL. I'll try to set-up a 4
person shot soon. It can be tough to do that and be
comfortable enough to forget there's a camera
there.
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- But yeah, it's
survival mode. I've already accomplished more than
I thought possible this year and although I'm
certainly an "in the moment" guy? I am absolutely
looking forward to these kids having a normal
schedule. Cam actually. Vienna has been on a normal
schedule since 7 months. Cam has been a bit more
chaotic because of breastfeeding and that slight
imbalance makes things a lot harder. I really can't
co-parent Cam like I did with Vienna. But soon, within
the next few months, Cam will be weened, he will be
sleeping through the night in the same room with his
sister and only having one mid-day afternoon nap
alongside her. Even writing that sentence I don't
believe in my heart that it's possible. LOL. Like
I picture that and think "That, will NEVER,
happen." But of course, it will. When you have kids
this close together you sacrifice a bit of peace at
the beginning and once you get past that? They allign
a lot quicker. Though right about now? I'm envious of
people who have kids 3 or 4 years apart. Vienna is
embracing "Two" so fucking hard right now
I honestly wonder what it's doing to Cam's brain
to be screamed at for opening his eyes. Vienna
straight loses her SHIT. It's interesting though,
because unlike other kids where there's a funny reason
for the meltdown (see: "why my son is crying" online)
with Vienna? It begins, occurs and ends completely in
her own head. She creates a thought (everything needs
to be this way, right now), the reality isn't like her
thought (literally something as minimal as the order
of coasters) and she is inconsolable. It's kind of
fascinating, and also a little worrisome.
I actually have a sigh of relief when she
meltsdown about normal toddler shit like we said she
couldn't eat something or she couldn't do something.
She has a tantrum and all is right with the world.
It's the other stuff that is mystifying. I
honestly think she's exceptionally smart and we can't
even get on her wave-length sometimes. It's kinda
spooky. Time will tell.
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- But for the most
part? The kids are alright. Talya's alright, and
dada's in a holding pattern while certain things come
together. Totally excited about Thanksgiving as my mom
is coming in town, Jimmy Talya and I are seeing the
STAR WARS TEASER on Friday, getting a
TREE and then the Michigan game. Holy shit what a
wonderful weekend.
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- ...and at 9:30,
I am going to sleep. Parenthood.
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- Adam
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