- 2:10 PM, Thursday,
December 12th, 2013:
- So I had a
couple hours to myself which usually means
I start recording stuff and see what comes out.
Just kinda let your mind wander and I came up with
this little story...
- Ahhhhh, Donna. It
has been awhile. No doubt what that was about. I still
sort of see those two people as characters in a book.
Tragic little story. And an exhausting one at that.
It's so clear I'm singing an octave lower than the
song is written and that's with good reason: I had no
energy to give anymore. Just telling the story
- All these years
later what strikes me most is that during Donna? The
most intense creative period of my life. On CBS, doing
10 jobs at once with my most successful year of my
entire career. ALL while dealing with a home-life
I can barely remember because I've blocked so
much out. What if. The dreaded what-if starts to
linger in when thinking of that time period because of
what I might have been able to give to my career had
there been some sort of support system. Now granted,
I gave goddamned everything - but I knew the
entire year I needed a killer agent and/or
manager to make the most out of the opportunity and
there simply weren't enough hours in the day to make
that happen. Thankfully I did enough to get the
Comedy Central shot a couple years later, but I
should've easily been at the very least hosting on a
cable network with my experience. It was an
opportunity missed and had everything to do with how
much I was trying to juggle...
- ...so I think
of it now? As utter exhaustion. And that song feels
like that. I always think it's hard to remember but
man, I started writing and my tone got lower, and
as the guitar strummed too fast, I could barely
keep up the talking/singing. It really feels like it's
of that time. And that's what I dig about the
discipline of The Journey. Not a great song by any
stretch, but an exercise in "being there". Feeling
those emotions. Emotions I'm just soooooo far from.
Good to know I can tap in so quickly. Something tells
me those skills will be valuable again.
- Would like to make
some happier music though. ;-)