As you can
probably imagine, I'm pretty bad with secrets. It
stems from why I don't lie in the first place... it's
exhausting. It's just too much goddamn work and I have
too much shit going on in my head in regards to things
I"m working on - and LIFE - to try and save space for
the complicated workings of a lie. Even one that is
intended to surprise and enlighten...
...but man, this
one is a doozy. I have the song done, I have
the ring, I've had it for a week... and it'll be
another MONTH until I'm able to share it all with her.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. The video will go here once it
can...
So as I said
earlier in the year, this has been a foregone
conclusion. In fact we've already been making plans
with her mom, believe we're gonna do it in December
and may have even found a place. But it's not lost on
Talya that I haven't actually asked. I told her
to just forget about it until July because there was
no way I could do this before she's even met my
family. They're already gonna be thinking:
"Married, again? YA DONT SAY." LOL. Which,
I expect and will join in the joking as well. Ya
gotta laugh. But after that, I want people to really
spend time with her and feel our energy together. It's
undeniable to anyone who watches us interact or who
knows me and then spends time with her. Had she been
pregnant in February when we thought she was? We would
be fine. We are an incredible match and as this
month already proves (even more coming up) we swim
through outside dramas like champs. I'm so lucky
I can barely stand it. So how's it all going
down?
THAT'S WHAT I HAVE TO WRITE ABOUT.
I got the ring a
week ago today and went home and wrote the "You Lost
That Girl" parody and then knocked out "The
Proposal Song". It's funny, Talya and I spend so
much time together that when she does go out to tutor
or whatnot, it's this MAD DASH to finish
projects. So I'm amazed I was able to get her
proposal song done AND have the alibi to what
I did today: "I wrote a song", and then show her
the first one. :) She'll never know how I got
this done without her being here. :-)
So I've hid the
ring in the piano bench that has a bunch of shit on
top of it and when we go back to Columbus, near the
end of the trip (so everyone does get to meet her
first, sans ring) I'm gonna have CD101 play it on the
air, and I'll bring the ring out at the chorus. RIGHT?
How cool is that gonna be. I'm still trying to figure
out the best way to do this... to be at the studio, or
out somewhere and just time it. Once I'm in Columbus
and have seen their new studio, the right way to go
about it will come to me. Then of course, how to tape
it without that seeming strange. Thankfully, she's
used to me taping everything. :-)
And, ironically
enough, this recent drama has certainly taken her mind
off things and hopefully she really does put off
thinking about the proposal until July. We leave for
Columbus on the 15th, and I think I'm gonna do it
around the 23rd or 24th. Her mom's gonna be a wreck
waiting for the call. Oh yeah...
Her mom has been
involved this entire time. Like I know jewelers in LA?
She found a guy and I was able to sell my
previous rings (what a surreal advantage to divorce)
and after a day of going back and forth... I went
with platinum. Other couples been through this? It's
kinda ridiculous. You can't really see the difference,
you just, uhm, know it's better. They say white gold
can wear badly, but I've never noticed it after
decades with some people's white gold. I googled
a bunch, and finally just coudn't go cheap on this.
Even if it means fuck all in the end, I wanted to get
platinum. Her mother gave me one of her diamonds which
I felt added an immense emotional value to the
ring. I could afford to get the diamond, it isn't
really that big, but they are very close and I love
the ring having added meaning because something came
from her mom. It will mean a lot to her in a couple
decades, for sure...
However that
choice does mean that alllllllllllllllllll the rings
have to be platinum so I've kinda just forced our hand
there, but hey - you only do this once,
right?
<go on,
just get it out of your
system>
Ok. I think being
able to write this will help me shut the hell up for
awhile. Although goddamnit I almost sang the song
in front of her the other day. Catchy freaking tune.
GRRRRRRRR.
