Blame it on Friday
the 13th... but I have a bit of "snark" in me today.
<shrugs>
99% of the time
I'm the peaceful, nice one. I forgive those that
went before me, I see all angles to things and I tend
to feel for others first. My psyche toys with revenge,
I think through fantastic scenarios, I enjoy
scheming evil plans against those that have done me
wrong - but I obviously never go through it, it's
just a creative writing exercise in my
head.
From time to time
a little snarkiness has come out on this site: The
Angry Song. Love the angry song. However in this case?
It's a slightly different underground emotion... this
is more of a "ha, ha you dumbass - nanny, nanny boo
boo you're an idiot". This is just not my cup of
"emotion". But it kinda jumped out at me after Talya's
long-term ex finally came out and said it: "I'm sorry,
I treated you like shit, I didn't know what
I had, you're a wonderful person and I want
to be in your life..." (paraphrasing). Yes when
I read that text I just couldn't help but
smile. First of all? For Talya. There's just no better
closure on the planet than this. She labored in this
relationship for years dealing with an insensitive ass
clown who has made me look soooooooooooo good, and she
finally gave it up last summer. Beseiged with doubts
about what she could've done better mixed with
frustration she stayed in it that long... and then
along comes Adam and she honestly does forget about
all that shit. And as anyone well-versed in
relationships know? That's when the ex comes
back.
This guy however
has "found himself" through Landmark Education
(google that cult, it's funny) and is presently trying
to get both me and Talya to join him in this. Just
laugh along with me. Please, 'cause anyone who knows
even an ounce of me knows he has a better shot at
getting me to participate in an ass raping contest as
the ASS. Now part of me does indeed feel for him
because he's clearly lost. My heart does go out to
people spinning to find answers and they almost always
end up at places like Landmark - and hey, at least he
said sorry, right? But then I get really
protective of Talya...
You spent 3 1/2
years leading her on, treating her like shit
(seriously he takes male inconsiderateness to new
levels) and then you want us to join Landmark? Brother
literally asked her 10 times in 24 hours for us to go
to his "Graduation" of this little pyramid
scheme. Do you have that little self-awareness man?
You apologize for being so selfish, then when she says
"no" you ask her 9 more times because you didn't like
the answer you got? That's kind of the definition of
selfish. Not being able to deal with not getting your
way. You learned soooo much didn't ya brother. So it
is with that angst that I recorded this:
Heh. Go Beatles.
Now, this is a conflicted entry for me for sure. This
is the part of The Journey that most people would come
back later and hide. This is kind of a dick move, but
honestly? It's just how I feel. I feel like being
kinda dick-ish to him. I'm rather defensive of Talya
and know that she hasn't always been able to stand up
to people like this... so yeah, I kinda want to
call him out for her. However, this is a fleeting
emotion that even by the end of this entry has me
wanting to just say "fuck it", shake his hand, buy him
a beer and say "no hard feelings" because I know
that poor bastard has got a lot more shitty days
ahead. If it's not "The Secret", it's "Landmark", it's
"Born Again", it's religion without spirituatlity -
it's looking outside for answers when they're all
sitting inside you.
I'll eventually
feel that way about him for the rest of my life. But
today, I felt like kinda rubbing his nose in it. It's
a dick move, and I accept that he will probably
call me that. But it'll make Talya giggle and that's
worth everything you can throw at me buddy.
Now give her her
money back. You dick.
Adam
PS - And don't
forget...to give me back my black T-Shit. (props to
anyone who gets this)