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2:47 PM, Friday, May 13th, 2011:
 
Blame it on Friday the 13th... but I have a bit of "snark" in me today. <shrugs>
 
99% of the time I'm the peaceful, nice one. I forgive those that went before me, I see all angles to things and I tend to feel for others first. My psyche toys with revenge, I think through fantastic scenarios, I enjoy scheming evil plans against those that have done me wrong - but I obviously never go through it, it's just a creative writing exercise in my head.
 
From time to time a little snarkiness has come out on this site: The Angry Song. Love the angry song. However in this case? It's a slightly different underground emotion... this is more of a "ha, ha you dumbass - nanny, nanny boo boo you're an idiot". This is just not my cup of "emotion". But it kinda jumped out at me after Talya's long-term ex finally came out and said it: "I'm sorry, I treated you like shit, I didn't know what I had, you're a wonderful person and I want to be in your life..." (paraphrasing). Yes when I read that text I just couldn't help but smile. First of all? For Talya. There's just no better closure on the planet than this. She labored in this relationship for years dealing with an insensitive ass clown who has made me look soooooooooooo good, and she finally gave it up last summer. Beseiged with doubts about what she could've done better mixed with frustration she stayed in it that long... and then along comes Adam and she honestly does forget about all that shit. And as anyone well-versed in relationships know? That's when the ex comes back.
 
This guy however has "found himself" through Landmark Education (google that cult, it's funny) and is presently trying to get both me and Talya to join him in this. Just laugh along with me. Please, 'cause anyone who knows even an ounce of me knows he has a better shot at getting me to participate in an ass raping contest as the ASS. Now part of me does indeed feel for him because he's clearly lost. My heart does go out to people spinning to find answers and they almost always end up at places like Landmark - and hey, at least he said sorry, right? But then I get really protective of Talya...
 
You spent 3 1/2 years leading her on, treating her like shit (seriously he takes male inconsiderateness to new levels) and then you want us to join Landmark? Brother literally asked her 10 times in 24 hours for us to go to his "Graduation" of this little pyramid scheme. Do you have that little self-awareness man? You apologize for being so selfish, then when she says "no" you ask her 9 more times because you didn't like the answer you got? That's kind of the definition of selfish. Not being able to deal with not getting your way. You learned soooo much didn't ya brother. So it is with that angst that I recorded this:
 
 
Heh. Go Beatles. Now, this is a conflicted entry for me for sure. This is the part of The Journey that most people would come back later and hide. This is kind of a dick move, but honestly? It's just how I feel. I feel like being kinda dick-ish to him. I'm rather defensive of Talya and know that she hasn't always been able to stand up to people like this... so yeah, I kinda want to call him out for her. However, this is a fleeting emotion that even by the end of this entry has me wanting to just say "fuck it", shake his hand, buy him a beer and say "no hard feelings" because I know that poor bastard has got a lot more shitty days ahead. If it's not "The Secret", it's "Landmark", it's "Born Again", it's religion without spirituatlity - it's looking outside for answers when they're all sitting inside you.
 
I'll eventually feel that way about him for the rest of my life. But today, I felt like kinda rubbing his nose in it. It's a dick move, and I accept that he will probably call me that. But it'll make Talya giggle and that's worth everything you can throw at me buddy.
 
Now give her her money back. You dick.
 
Adam
 
PS - And don't forget...to give me back my black T-Shit. (props to anyone who gets this)