Can't sleep. 1000
things on my mind. Funny what suddenly caring about
your life can do for ya. Sounds like a
"Randoms" entry to me.
1) Rewriting
History
Ugh. Not that
I expect any of my friends to do this, but if you
want to fuck with my brain? Come up with a drastically
different view of our relationship and email it to me.
Then respond with a smartass smiley. How did I go
so many years without this? How fortunate was I that
my relationships early in life were so strong? Such
level-headed, good people? This is someone
I cut-off last month but who emailed me randomly
a few days ago and I was stupid enough to
respond. Thinking a loving, communicative address of
our relationship would somehow make sense to her NOW.
See, I know that "rationale can hit a home-run, but
irrationale can change the sport" - except I have
a hard time believing this person is irrational. She's
not as obvious as Donna. Of course writing back left
myself open for even more slams at my character
and integrity -and now I'm just... God I'm antsy. I'm
angry. But why? The woman has never listened to
reason... in over TWO YEARS. Why on earth am
I surprised? 'Cause I love her and care
desperately about my role in her life. <throws
hands up> It doesn't matter that she doesn't act
like a friend, that she's mean and hurtful - for some
reason I feel the need to explain myself to her over
and over. I guess it's the LIBRA in me
(haaaaaaaaa) that goes crazy over imbalances.
I see an obvious untruth and want to correct it.
I can't. Maddening.
2) Thank you,
juxtaposition
I know it's 'cause
we're both in that stage of the relationship where we
could literally club baby seals together and we'd
still be in love, but it sure is nice to be able to
talk about that first random with Talya and have her
actually listen and understand. That I can have past
relationships (clearly something someone with me would
have to be cool with - ha) and have them still affect
me today. So many women would not be cool with that.
At all. If it affects you today, it must mean you're
still in love or still hung up on them. For someone
like me - that simply isn't true. There are several
women in my life that I care about that if they
turned on me, it would hurt me greatly. Relationships
I've put 10+ years into and have shared so much. It's
that ability to care that explains why I have
such long lasting ties, and these are certainly tests
for the person I'm romantically involved with.
Flying colors for her, of course, but more than that?
A reminder of what a complete lack of drama looks
like. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
3) The all-time
Grudge Match
Unlike the drama
that will unfold today for me and Marty. We have never
been this close in our entire lives. His favorite
team, The Steelers, and my favorite team, The Bears -
are both one win away from meeting in the superbowl.
Five years ago we were close and The Steelers actually
did make it, but The Bears absolutely blew it by
losing their first playoff game. We
REALLY thought it was gonna happen that year, so
much that Marty didn't even want to talk about today
for fear of jinxing it. But alas, the day is upon us.
Of course if this actually happens? I don't know what
we're gonna do. It seems nearly criminal to not watch
this game together and make a short-film out of it.
Our whole lives man. Whew. And to Greg, who doesn't
understand why people care about sports: it's because
it's fun. It's not war. It's a goddamn game. It's fun
to root for a game. Real-life is a bit too
intense sometimes. ;-)
4) Surreal
timing
Speaking of whole
lives... I think Mr. Moose has actually found his
better half. In an absolutely eerie few weeks we've
found ourselves going from single to "in a
relationship" by random phonecalls of shock and
amazement to each other. Both of us were in the thick
of singledom when it just sort of snuck up on us. And
now WE'RE finishing each others' sentences like an old
married couple. It's pretty awesome. I am
incredibly happy for him and it's actually really fun
talking to him again 'cause we both know exactly what
the other person is going through. However we will
hate each other for two weeks starting at 10pm EST if
our teams can pull this off. <Gulp>
5) Michael Vick
couldn't...
HA. I know
animal lovers were cheering when he threw
THAT interception a couple weeks ago. (sigh)
I sigh because I think this whole thing is
crazy and as an animal lover I have to share my
two cents on this and as usual, it will come from
logic more than heart - which (contrary to this
romantacized website) is how I tend to live my
life. Much in the same way a pedophile who gets out of
prison can never win? Neither can an animal abuser. To
some people, there is no proper punishment. I tend to
agree with that... to a point. And that point is, once
the dude does his time and is free. At which point, I
root for them to be successful again. It's why
part of me actually has a problem with Megan's Law.
Now, some areas have such fucked up laws when it comes
to abusing children, I understand the need for
Megan's Law - but it seems out-of-whack in my head. If
you make it impossible for someone to be part of
society again, you might as well keep them in jail.
And sorry, as a parent - EVERYONE should be
considered a stranger/child molestor so the point of
the big Scarlet Letter is meaningless... but,
I understand. Only part of me has a problem with
the law, the other part thinks they should have their
nuts chopped off. And same goes with Michael Vick. I'm
not sure those that immediately defend him know just
how cruel he was. Just how intense the abuse was. It
wasn't just the dogfighting. That can be understood
considering the south and the customs of the area. How
they put dogs down (google it, not repeating it here)
or even threw family pets in for laughs? So fucking
heinous I think he should be shot. This ain't like
huntin'. This is some sadistic shit. That all being
said? Now that my heart has said it's peace? The man
paid his due more than any single human being has
EVER paid for this crime. At the height of his
athletic career he threw away 2-3 years. He went to
jail, he lost millions, he brought more light on the
issue than has EVER been on it. The
HUMANE SOCIETY has even written
recommendations for how good he has been for this
issue with his speeches (ironic, I know). He did
everything asked of him and then some. At some point?
Ya gotta let go. I think he's a fuckin' moron for
saying he believes he should be able to own a dog now,
but he deserves to pursue happiness as we all do.
That's the law of the land. If you take issue with
that? Fight the law, not the man who paid, again, more
than any person has ever paid for this
crime.
6) Crime pays
about $3 Million an episode
Destroy your hotel
room with pornstars and hookers and make more money
than anyone for phoning it in. That is the life of
Charlie Sheen, and I got to watch it first hand last
week as I went to a taping of "Two and a half men"
with Talya and her parents. It was the first taping
after that story where producers were concerned if he
would even show up and although tapings of sitcoms are
excrutiating to sit through - I was all sorts of
curious to see Sheen after all the hub-bub. It was as
expected. <shakes head> I don't want to
bemoan sit-com acting, as I enjoyed it with The Egos,
but there comes a point in every sit-com where it's
such auto-pilot that seeing it live actually angers a
real actor. I mean, I'm happy for Jon Cryer (who
will always be "Duckie" to me) for the money/fame
he got, but I have to think he's ready to do something
else. I mean, the pizza guy stole the show in this
particular episode simply because we're all just tired
of the other characters. However I do love how
hard the 4th wall comes crashing down in the show. So
many lines about hookers and Charlie made the audience
laugh waaaaaaaaay too long. It all seems so scripted.
People are really wondering if CBS is upset with
Charlie's antics? Are you kidding? It writes the show.
I honestly think it's all a publicity stunt. Like,
that shit didn't even happen - and they paid some
reporters to make up the story to make the show
funnier. <shrugs> Interesting circus to
watch.
7) Speaking of
interesting to watch...
One more random
from the night... So 90% of what you are watching
during a taping is the warm-up guy bringing up
audience members and making them do stupid shit for
autographs and candy. It's amusing, if not a bit too
predictable. "Let's find the hot chick and make her
dance" is what it ends up being. Dirty old man as an
emcee... check. He brings up one particular girl with
a "special talent" and she is able to stick out her
tongue and touch her nose. However, this woman
elicited a "JESUS" even from me 'cause when she stuck
out her tongue it seemed MILES too long. Which of
course made the emcee turn her TOWARDS the crew and
guess who came-a-runnin' to see this. Like, out of
nowhere, here comes Charlie to soak in this woman now
sticking her tongue out and putting a MINT up her nose
with relative ease. Very funny to watch him watch her.
I wonder if he pulled a rockstar move and got her
backstage after? And why does that seem more sleazy
than a rockstar doing it? <shrugs>
8) Speaking of
sleazy...
Oh I fell for
it too. The Golden-Voiced Homeless Man. How could you
not be amazed at that video? And my hometown to boot?
Wow. That's even the intersection I use in the
Journey Documentary to re-enact the day Jess and
I left. Bizarre. Anyway, if you watch the
entire video he talks about drugs/alcohol and a
tiny little flag went off in my head (and many others)
"Oh, there's a fuckload more to THIS story." This
is where the republican in me comes out from time to
time. They ain't all just "Down on their luck". Sorry.
Some of them have 9 kids and are fuckin' deadbeats
even though they have all the TALENT in the world. And
they actually deserve LESS of a break then (ahem)
those with talent who are still at it and haven't
fathered a FOOTBALL team. The amount of doors now
open to that dude are 100x more than I've gotten in a
lifetime. Now, he's gonna lose them ALL because he's
an idiot, but it is slightly frustrating to those of
us who just want the opportunities. Then again,
nothing beats the head-shaking amazement of that video
when he pulls up and that voice comes out of that
dude. Fucking, wow.
9) Homeless in the
21st Century
I've already
gotten over seeing a homeless person with a cell phone
in LA, but this one really blew me away:
No, this wasn't
the start of some line to get an iPad, this was two
homeless peeps outside of a grocery store. And yes,
the one homeless peep had a laptop. A guy I knew
back in my WTVN days is also now homeless
(legitimately, not like staying with a friend...
actually sleeps on the street) but has a Facebook
account and access it from libraries. However, having
a laptop just really baffled me. I don't even have a
working laptop right now. Ya know? LOL. I can't
afford one. However, I guess if I didn't
have to pay two mortgages I could. Hmmm.
10) Did she really
just say that?
Wow. Can you
believe I caught this? "I'll tell your plastic
surgeon" is the best response ever. That was the
venerable Bob Eubanks responding to Stephanie Edwards
who has apparently been losing it for years now. Been
holding onto this video for awhile, glad to do a
Randoms so I could share it with you guys.
11) Oh, and Halle
Berry
I apologized for
not being a very good "Journey Documenter" when
I went to a Q&A with Ryan Gosling a couple
weeks ago. Went to another with Halle Berry and at
least got this blurry pic:
Truth be told,
I personally hate this shit and would never even
document it if not for this site. Or get a picture
with them? Why? To put it on Facebook so people think
I'm friends with a celebrity? <SNORE> It just
comes off as insincere to me. I already know I'm
looked at differently because I live in this
surreal city, throwing up pictures with me and
celebrities as if we're "pals" is just gag-worthy. But
I did feel responsible to those that read all
this fucking sad drivel for years to at least show a
random pic of Halle Berry... seemingly about to get
gang tackled by three white guys. Ha. Listen, if this
was Paul McCartney? Yeah, I'd be a little bitch.
Otherwise, after Michael Jordan? You're not gonna see
me starstruck. C'est La vie. Oh and this was a
screening for "Frankie and Alice" where Halle Berry
plays a woman with multiple personalities. It was
good. Wasn't great (for a myriad of reasons), but she
held her own. Unfortunately for her however, there are
actors that are such remarkable "Chameleons" on-film
that they blow these roles out of the water. She's too
pretty to feel that shift. You want to see a
skin-crawling personality shift? Ed Norton, Primal
Fear. Fucking, wow.
12) It's a
political shooting. Deal with it.
I'll be the first
to say that of the Top 5 reasons Loughner did it, that
4 of them are "CRAZY"... but that 5th one? Yeah, it's
political. She's a congresswoman, duh. And she's a
democrat - 2nd duh. And if you just happened to put
out a graphic with a gun-sight over the
congresswoman's district with her name on it, and she
gets shot point-blank in the face? You need to raise
your hand and apologize for being irresponisble. There
is no grey area here. This isn't the media being mean
to Sarah Palin, this isn't the media trying to make it
more than it is - it's the truth. It was a political
assassination attempt that took the life of 6 people
and dude was a radical anti-government crazy. I've
watched the videos, and yes - some of his rants were
anti-war which you could certainly construe as a
"liberal" view, but dude was anti-government,
period. Guess where that rhetoric is coming from?
There's a big difference between saying someone is
RESPONSIBLE for him doing it, and saying someone
is IRRESPONSIBLE for using violent rhetoric. Man-up
and accept that. I will even DEFEND Sarah Palin's
use of gun-rhetoric and targets on a LOCAL level
because in Alaska, that shit flies. In the entire
northwest of this country it flies. For some reason
she didn't get the memo when she came into the
national spotlight that you have to shift a bit. She
didn't, and this incident will drown her politically.
Ya just don't do it. The right is absolutely feeding
the fire. Obama is going to be shot at... and yes,
that person will be "crazy", but they will also be
fueled by this hate. Constant HATE. I've written about
this a bunch and as I said in my video,
it's like we're watching history in slow motion, but
in the present tense. The right has to lay-off
the hate a bit. Seriously. And again, what are they
mad about? Are they mad that kids are dying in
unnecessary wars for profit? No. They're angry about
their tax dollars going to HEALTH CARE. What,
the, fuck. We are the goddamn laughing stock of the
industrialized world.
But for a couple
of hours today, I'm now going to focus on a "game"
that really doesn't matter. It just means that there
will be a really cool 15 minute short-film in a couple
weeks starring me and Marty if Chicago and Pittsburgh
win today. That's exactly what we should be cheering
for. Goofy games played by grown men.
