Oh this game is gonna get ugly.
14-0 with 6:35 to go in the 1st? Whew. Sorry for the
tangent, it's my birthday, I'm editing a video, making
an entry and watching the Buckeyes. Pretty freaking
perfect for so far. In fact, let me share it with
ya...
The symoblism doesn't get more
obvious than that. And as is everything with my life,
it's instantly public and zero room to hide.
Frightening? No. Simple accountability that I adore.
And many of you are freaked the hell out by it. Man
has Facebook opened people's eyes to the public life
I've been part of for 11 years. Except you guys are
still all pussies about it. Ha.
So apparently, your relationship
status on that site is serious shit. Whether you
actually say single, or don't have it up at all, if
you are in a relationship or
ACTUALLY LINK TO THEM! AHHHHH. Since my
entire life is IN STONE? Forever? Facebook is a
friggin' pre-school toy to me. Like, taking
"single" off is more cautious. That shows a
little more restraint. Actually saying you're in a
relationship?!?! WOAH WOAH WOAH.
People, you're all lying. If
you're not bangin anyone else, you're in a
relationship. You just are. Now I could
understand not making it public if things are going
really BAD, but barring that - all these little
"status games" are really stupid to someone like me
who can NEVER take back an entry. And even those are
put up with very little fear of looking silly later.
If I avoided the egg on my face, this site would
be boring as shit. So UNclicking that relationship
status 2 weeks later? Heh. Sounds about
right.
Hey, I hoped. What did
I say in Entry #1079?
LET ME BE RIGHT! And if I'm wrong, let
me be OK with being wrong. And a funny thing
happened on my way to figuring it out... I gained
a friend, a manager and a renewed faith in my ability
to communicate. I am ecstatic today. I am on
top of the world. 'Cause for the past couple weeks my
"on the same page" radar has been wonky as fuck.
I mentioned it in #1082 by saying I was
trying to float while she was paddling. I can't stay
in that situation long without saying something. Most
people hardly even notice it, it beats me in the head
when someone I'm with isn't on the same page. The
hours and hours and hours I've spent talking trying to
explain the page I'm on... well, I'm sure that doesn't
take much convincing to you reading this considering
this is number ONE THOUSAND EIGHTY FOUR...
ha. Anyway, it finally broke through - and we're on
the same page... and it's perfect.
Why???????????
Because I wholeheartedly
believe that everyone on the planet has a place
somewhere with everyone else. You just have to
communicate enough to find out what that is. The whole
reason, season, lifetime thing. Once you accept that?
You let go of the outcome. You just communicate and
see what comes of it. By being exclusive, you are
certainly hoping for something... but you
simply don't control the outcome at the beginning of a
relationship. You're just comparing parts and seeing
what fits. <----Ha. I am the king of
unintentional sexual innuendos. "Palmolive" and
I did, and we know where we fit. In record time
to boot. I love that shit. I love the hell
out of that shit. Considering the YEARS I've spent
trying to define that with others? I'll take 2 weeks.
That being said? How cool is
"Palmolive"? I'm still just as enamored. I still love
hangin' out with her. I love how passionate she
is about the industry. I love that I got to meet
her parents and now have several mothers reading The
Journey and wincing at how many times I write
"fuck".
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I'm so
sorry, it's how I talk. The only time I think
about it is when I'm on the air. Otherwise, as you saw
in the video, it just kinda comes out. And the folks
at CD101 really did say "wake the fuck up!" this
morning at 6:59am. And I do miss them. They are
family. I'm concentrating on finding that type of
family out here now. I certainly found a new dawn
in that capacity a couple weeks ago.
