If you want to get Adam out of a
funk? Ask him this question:
"Do you want to float downstream?
Literally?"
I'm certainly not feeling like
myself right now, and when someone very special to me
wanted to meet... I really just didn't want to. I felt
weak, beaten, exhausted - and I just didn't want her
to see me like that. She understood, and left me
alone... and then asked if I wanted to go
canoeing. Nothing strenuous, just floating downstream.
I'm not sure even she understood what that meant to
me. My song "Float Downstream" has been a mantra since
I wrote it last year - and
literally/spiritually/figuratively exactly what I
wanted right now. I said yes immediately... and
enjoyed every second:
I haven't felt that blessed in a
long time. The 3 hour experience was spent just
talking, and smoothly going through the motions. It
couldn't help but hit me over the head just how
different this was than the previous 6 months. Helping
each other paddle and avoid (and hit a few) rocks -
and just sharing the time with each other talking. You
forget that sometimes, people just go together. It
takes absolutely no effort, no thought on how to
"phrase things" for the other person - it just IS. And
it's the most spiritually fulfilling thing you can
ever experience after going through an incredibly
trying few months where the exact opposite happened.
And I don't mean this as sleight
to ***** in the least. It just is what it is.
Sometimes you just cannot coexist with someone, and
even attempting to becomes laborious. You start to
just survive and you blame yourself. You think
you're somehow toxic and I pray ***** also finds
others to be around that just flows. Because goddamnit
it is as healing a feeling as you can possibly have.
The person I was with, always
wants to remain nameless and we've been through some
storms together for sure. But she has a place in my
heart and I just love the unique experiences we have
with each other. I will never forget this healing
moment. How perfect that it was your cough at the end
of the song... which I just have to post here again.
Thank you so much. Your heart is,
as always, lovely to me.
