I know I should
start these randoms explaining the trash can, but holy
shit there are bigger issues...
My iPad won't
charge. I think it's the charger, but I may have
damaged the port attached to the charger, which means
they would have to replace my
FREAKING iPAD which will take awhile since
there are none in this city.
IM GOING ON A ROAD TRIP MONDAY.
DAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Losing it. This so sucks.
Books, magazines, songs, movies, games.... just -
THE travel companion. DAMNIT. Ahem. I'm going to
the Apple store when it opens. Leaving now.
Ok, it was the
charger. I feel a little foolish. They replaced it,
sent me on my way... and it made me sit and think
about just how insanely bummed I was. I mean...
has this thing really affected my life this greatly?
Goddamn it has, hasn't it? I was seriously losing
it thinking about this road trip having to
<gasp> did what I did on every other road trip
the previous 33 years of my life. I'm so freaking
happy it was just the cable and that I got a new one.
3) So we need to
talk about this.
It didn't get more
anti-apple than me. My reasons were extremely
clear-cut and simple: there's nothing wrong with apple
products, if money isn't an option. Money will always
be a HUGE option for me, and if I can do it for
cheaper on a PC, I choose cheaper. Not only could I do
it on a PC cheaper... I could do it cheaper and BETTER
'cause I can build and hack my own shit. The choice
was always clear. Then I got the idea for the
ipadcomic and I had no choice but to buy an Apple
product. Even if there was a PC version that was
cheaper? The name was too catchy. Now, that being
said, nothing is an iPad. Sorry. It just isn't. And
after a month with this thing attached to me? It is
the most revolutionary product I've ever owned. It has
reshaped my life/day/patterns/habits/outlook. I'm
reading books, reading magazines, I'm interracting
more, I'm being inspired by creative (and usually
free) apps... I'm simply astounded. It is so much more
than they say it is. There's a 99 cent app that is
simply a bunch of game boards and pieces. You lay the
iPad between you and a friend, and just play a board
game, or use a deck of cards... any of the ZILLION
ways you can think of to use it. Of course you can do
any ONE of the things the iPad can do already... but
to do them all? To have ALL your books and
magazines... more songs and movies than you could
watch/listen to in a year? And with a wifi or 3G?
Everything the internet has to offer? Plus the tons of
touch-screen apps, that simply didn't exist until the
iPhone and iPad? It's mind blowing. After a couple
days I finally understood what was happening. This is
the future. I can understand people waiting until
other versions come out, etc. But I guarantee that in
10 years? They will be as common as laptops. Everyone
will have a small, touch-screen "pad-like" device to
do everything on. And right now? Nothing comes close
to the smoothness, and absolute polish of this device.
As I mentioned earlier in the month, you forget every
single grievance you had because you're so busy
enjoying it. Laying back and reading a magazine and
not being hunched over a laptop? Heaven. And not
having stacks of shit everywhere? Wondrous. $499 is
indeed expensive, and I would never have spent that
without the idea for the new show... but I nearly shit
my pants when I didn't think I'd have this thing for
two weeks. Something I never thought I needed has
become indispensible. It's shocking. And this from a
PC PC PC PC PC guy. Something
to consider, for sure. OK, US vs. Ghana is coming
3) Well that
Man... I was
really digging the World Cup. That really
blew. I have to say,
I really enjoy the subtle rhythm differences of
every sport. People that say soccer is boring, are
clearly not open to anything in life. It's one of the
more intense gaming experiences I've ever known. But I
love football, love basketball... and hell, I love
4-Square obviously. I like competition in general and
watching athletes at their peak is inspiring to me.
I always relate it to my life, and am instantly
attracted to the human-element of the moment. The
match I just watched was several of these guys last
time ever playing in The World Cup. This was their
"Comedy Central Pilot" moment, that I had last fall.
It's gripping human drama, and I'm a magnet to that
shit. Anyway, it was a close match, but the better
team seemed to win that one. And that last kick in
extra-time by the Ghana player was extraordinary. Hats
off to them.
4) So about that trash
So I'm walking around my
neighborhood and spot a fast-food restaurant trash-can
in an alley. Not of a fast-food restaurant mind you...
just being thrown out with a bunch of garbage. It
didn't take but 3 seconds for me to sprint my ass
home, get my dolly and proceed to roll that sunuva
bitch back to my house. With GLEE. Giddy-as-hell. It
has the big THANK-YOU on it. I mean, this is a
no-brainer, right? Seems every guy I've told agrees
wholeheartedly. Women think I'm fucking insane. Story
of my life really - HA. If there was a gay-pill, I'm
So I am now the owner of what
I once thought was a McDonald's Trashcan - but it's
closer to Taco Bell, though that Taco Bell is a
drive-through only, so I'm not exactly sure how that
got there. Either way, it was being thrown out - and
I took THAT shit and will have to figure out what
to do with it. Something tells me that it will
eventually be part of a putt-putt hole I will put in
my backyard. I'm like a white-trash Michael Jackson,
aren't I... Jesus, that just occured to me. HA.
5) Trash Can Rant
So I figured whenever I felt like
it, I'd sit in my trash-can and spout off some
I could've done a bunch more, but
it was getting dark. And seriously? It's like tweeting
how much your job sucks. What on earth was McChrystal
thinking? I'll never understand that. But Afghanistan
is even more of a mess now. No way he's getting out
next July, which is fucking bullshit. If we're not out
of those 2 wars by his re-election? He's in danger.
And he's in danger of losing ME. I know it's a
mess, I know he was put in a bad position. Stop
worrying so goddamn much about the Republicans not
liking you and just fucking end that shit. Move the
fuck on. It's done. Stick to the withdrawal, and
DO IT. Enough already. (ahem)
6) I know I mentioned this
Enough with the overall
"Government-slamming" on the oil spill. This tide
needs to turn. The people that were against Obama
before? Not even listening to you. The arguments are
assanine. I'm talking specifically to the far-left and
even moderates. For example, Rachel Maddow. She gave
her own speech the night after Obama's address (which
was completely political and I hated it, but he
had no choice). And listen, I liked her speech more.
Absolutely. But don't people understand that the
president can't make that speech? Don't they
understand that he can't unequivocally say "We will
never drill that far down ever again"? Sounds great,
but he doesn't have the power to say that. He doesn't.
He can't. And Rachel Maddow (who is certainly
brilliant) of all people should understand the
juggling it takes to run that ship. That's what I'm
really loving about this period. It's an about-face on
ALLLLLLLLLLLLLL the slamming of Bush that we did. It's
an eye-opener. There's only so much that can actually
be done. It's the advantage I have as someone who
wasn't "Agenda-Driven" with Obama. I like the man,
I like the leader. I don't care about his agenda.
I like seeing how he reacts to what's thrown at him.
I like seeing the idiot pundits around him. I
like seeing the choices he makes, good and bad - and
how the pressures affect him. I'm sad when has to do
purely political things like go to the gulf 4 times to
look at oil on the shore. It's fucking stupid as
FUCK that our media force that issue. They think
that's important. They're CLUELESS. And he has no
choice but to play the game. 'Cause they hold the keys
to his election. What an absolutely backwards nation
we live in. LOL. Anyway, I know it's popular to talk
about how "weak" he is right now, but that's not
it. He's just too goddamned moderate for this country.
You know? He actually thinks things through and tries
to compromise and bring both sides together. Man, it
just ain't happenin' Barry. You need to do what you're
gonna do in the time you have, and then back the fuck
out. Interesting to watch though.
7) FOUR Finale
Tomorrow marks the end of the FOUR
series, and I'm glad everyone can see how it ends.
I'll get to all that in the entry tomorrow, but
outside of the FOUR realm, it will be nice to
have the whole series/idea behind me for the time
being. So overwhelming, so much work, such a
committment! It was like doing an entire Egos
Season... for free. And doing it when it was
techincally "over before it began" because Atom had
already passed on it. So it sorta stung going through
every freaking week. I am still extremely proud of it,
and look back on all that is housed within this
"Journey" in awe. I never thought I could do so
much (and stay so anonymous-lol) and that really does
hit home. In the very end? It's all about the art.
It's all about the products you produce. Body of work.
The amount you give of yourself. And I am proud that
I've been able to give so many sides for so long and
at such a high standard.
8) That sounded a little finite,
I laid in bed a couple nights ago
and really "had it out" with my own psyche. About
really letting it go. I've been threatening for
the entirety of this hellish year and there was just a
moment that I had to really ask myself if I was
serious. The outcome? Too much shit swirling around me
at this moment to make a decision. That has been clear
for awhile now. But I'm close enough to the end of
that shit to see where I'll be in a couple weeks, and
when I really search my heart? I'm convinced it
won't be a moment that clear. I may have already made
it, and I won't know for awhile... or the "moment"
will happen later, and again - I won't know until even
later. It feels gone to me. That's all I can
say. But I will absolutely admit that somewhere way
deep down? I see that magical ending where everything
works out and it makes the entire journey even
MORE incredible because I didn't give up. But
I take little hope in that, because - I will
believe that until I'm 80. LOL. That's the little boy
in me that likes fairy tales. And it's not all
"dreaming", it's a majority logical to me because of
my talents. They don't get much more analytical than
me and I know I bring the right pieces to the
table. All doubt of that flew away when I went so far
above and beyond what was asked at me when I was with
CBS. So that's why that little twinge still
...but I also edit this
fucking monstrosity and I know when the lead character
has let go. It's now up to some things that
AREN'T in his control anymore whether or not this
shit already ended. I don't even care anymore. I just
keep going through the motions.
9) Motions that sweep me across
the country, for a third time...
And finally, in an entry I'll
upload on July 1st - I will be on the road driving
with a friend across the country. In a moment in life
that is heartbreaking for the friend on every level
imagineable, I will try to put together a series
of entries, in "Random" form, that should tell
everyone everything they've been wondering about in
the locked entries. It's all I can think of to do
in a situation that has been exhausting beyond
measure. It's anything but happy, but there is beauty
in the road. There is beauty in the life changing
moments that seem so crushing at the time and I will
do my best to just capture that essence and do it
justice for both of us. We've been through a living
hell these past 6 months, and it's coming to an end.