The moment a
threesome isn't awkward, is the moment you realize
you're a pornstar. They're always awkward. And they
should be.
Do I leave that
sentence in?
Oh, what can it
hurt. Might as well give those following this crazy
thing something juicy to chew on after locking an
entire month. Thank goodness for Duke Fightmaster, who
knows how long the locked streak would have gone
on...
I have to
start by saying that all I've seen of Duke and his
wife, clearly she's supportive of his ventures. She's
in his shorts, and plays along so this is all tongue
in cheek. But let me also say that there is certainly
an ounce of truth to the awkwardness and I know both
sides of this argument very, very well. Let's watch,
shall we?
Yeah, it ain't all
tongue-in-cheek. LOL.
I really dig this
interview. It's just colorful and bizarre to me. It's
things like this that literally make The
Journey breathe. This will forever burn March 2010 in
my brain. These colors, those words, that band at the
beginning and end. In the same way Adam Darling and
the Key Club was March 2009. The little events the
scatter the off-months of this story are usually my
favorite because they get forgotten over time and are
always nice to discover when I look back. It's
why I always jump at every opportunity big or
small because it's always another video. Another video
that is the backbone of my life.
What I liked most
about the video is that you can tell from the
beginning he relates to my story, and has an vested
interest in it. It's like he wants to know the answers
'cause he's lookin' for the same ones. I love how
he sets up the "Yeah, you showed that bitch that left
you!" storyline only to have me totally stop that dead
in his tracks. From my perspective though, it's nice
to know that only my life could make some of those
moments work. You know? It makes it all seem worth it
when you have interviews like that. As a viewer,
I am interested in all the stories that guy must
have. When he says "Is this you're first? You've got 2
more to go..." I think - what the fuck? And
I want to hear more. It's "The Lemonade Life".
That guy doesn't seem beaten, he seems fun and
interesting...
...which is
BAFFLING to me considering the 2 months I've had.
Like, I cannot believe I have the ability to
do that sometimes. The guy in that video seems
completely at ease (though the seating was a bit
awkward - really didn't know how to sit with Leslie on
the right) and the second before and after I'm done
with it - I'm back in the depression, trying to fight
through the drama and trying to figure out what the
fuck to do next. This is a completely surreal time in
my life.
As well, there's a
plethora to catch you all up on - so a Randoms is due.
Probably "Random Proof that I'm Alive" as a title.
LOL. God I hate locking these entries. It's
cutting off a lifeline. I still write, still make
the videos, but without knowing it's out there? Man,
I just feel trapped. It's such an acute emotion
that I can only imagine other bloggers
feel.
Back to the
interview - I must apologize to Duke for my 1014
video where I show the crowd on my way up. LMAO.
Leave it to me to blow his cover as he edits in a
bigger crowd at the beginning of the video. Never
occured to me that was what he did or I probably
would've helped the big cover-up. Heh. Ahh "Behind The
Scenes" of struggling entertainers as they use smoke
and mirrors to further their efforts.
Back to the
editing of "FOUR". Christ have I even mentioned that?
No that's all locked up too. Grrr... I'll get to all
that in the Randoms entry later this week.
