That's today. 10
years and 1 day from the moment in Entry #1, from a
different angle and guaranteed to warp my memory (and
Jess and Marty's) for the rest of our lives.
Seriously, look at this:
How awesome did
that turn out? None of that is final btw, I completely
put that together for the entry, but that
should've required sooooooo much manpower.
SOOOOO many logistics. So many takes, and so much
work... and in reality it was the 2nd hotel Marty and
I went to and the first and only take we had as the
manager was pissed at us and made us leave. There's
certainly flaws, and with more time we could've been
exacting... but for the purposes of the movie? It's
perfect. More than perfect. It's skin crawlingly eerie
and as I mentioned before, I believe will
(in time) screw with our memories of the event.
For those just
jumpin' in on this roller coaster. I'm putting
together a film where 2010 Adam goes into Entry #1,
grabs 2000 Adam, and tells him the entire Journey up
to that point... then the next morning we see what
2000 Adam chooses to do. It's probably the best
example of making a positive out of 10 years of
failures I can possibly think of and literally didn't
know the ending until I was in the car filming the
ending. I was that torn. I'm extremely happy with
how it all turned out and really can see this having a
cult following in time. I just don't know of anyone
with such a vulnerably documented 10 year period, and
the movie turns into a reality version of Back to the
Future and It's a Wonderful Life. Really intriguing
stuff.
What's not so
intriguing unfortunately is just how difficult the
whole "reliving the past" aspect of the past couple
weeks has been, not only for me, but for Jess. This is
shit you just don't do folks. It'd be like us
re-enacting our wedding day. No matter how positive we
are about the outcome being correct, there's ALWAYS
gonna be feelings involved and in many ways Entry #1
symbolized everything for me and Jess. The start of
The Journey is absolutely a team effort. The
entries were signed: Jess & Adam. So
dressing up identically and going through the motions
is some sort of twisted, man. I can't thank Jess
enough for indulging in it all, because truth be told
it has produced some sleepless nights. I also had her
watch parts of last night's show early to make sure
she was cool with them and that too is just draining.
There was actually some videos/songs she never saw
from that period so talk about reliving the pain.
Goddamn. And of course the stuff she had seen, simply
doesn't fade in time. I've mentioned this before, but
it's something fairly new to our generation and
something I'm sure the first generation after cheap
"still pictures" had to go through. 100 years ago? You
had no reminders of your youth anywhere near as
intense as a photograph. You couldn't be a woman aging
in her 40s, happen upon your prom picture and hit that
certain level of depression. We can blame depression
on diet and societal progress all we want, but the
simple invention of photography and exponentially so,
video... has affected our society greatly. Now throw
in the ability to be your own movie studio? To shoot
your own personal auto-documentary nearly day in and
day out? We are drastically affecting the way our
brains process. We are far more introspective than
anyone but the most eccentric of people were in
centuries past, and it can absolutely stunt our
actions. Whereas many are predisposed to mental
illness due to chemistry, anyone on the line?
I guarantee that access to "the way we were" puts
people over the edge. It certainly makes "dreamers and
artists" FARRRRRRR more emotional and susceptible to
depression. I'm sure I'm not the first to think of it,
but I certainly feel like the posterchild considering
I've done a video blog longer than anyone. And believe
me, the "blog" portion of that (meaning sharing it
with the world) is a crucial part of the process. It
magnifies every personal flaw to such a degree that I
wouldn't be surprised if no one (and I do mean no
one), ever chronicles their own life to this degree
for this long of a period. It has to become
self-destructive at some point. And the thought of
doing it "forever" will be so overwhelming, 99.9%
won't even consider starting. Certainly is a
fascinating quandry.
Man I'm off the
subject here. I've decided I'm gonna devote Entry
#1002 to all the behind the scenes stuff from #1000
and #1001 considering there's so much. Nothing funnier
than watching Jess look like she's 5 because I'm
yelling at the manager to let us do at least ONE take
of the J-Dog smuggle. Clearly she's not used to
getting in trouble the way I always do. :-) Thank
God we got to do one take though. It certainly did
work - and there's a reason Marty looked really
nervous. LMAO. Love it. Oh and Ravi from The
Continent... so much insanity...
...like the
continuing shitty weather. Snow is one thing,
temperatures in the teens totally different. When
Marty says: "It's pretty chilly", you know it's cold.
That guy has his AC running in November. Ready
for the 70 degree temperatures at home. I leave
Wednesday. So this is probably the last entry from
Columbus. I've been here lonoger than I ever have
since the 90s. Whew.
